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I Shoot From The Heart And Don't Aim

by Ryan Spilken

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1.
While turning away she said "yeah well ok; just a second. Is there really a difference between what you've wanted, and what you're getting?" And he can't say yes or no because a naked truth always looks sad Like two lovers come to blows in the tv shows and checkout rags He was once the proudest tree in the forest, tall and haughty Till the world spun 'round enough to leave him gnarled and sorry And he can't make high or low ‘cause nothing makes sense to you while you burn Like the weight of afterglow when you're really only taciturn The rain won’t wash you out when you walk down the street, and I won’t let you down once I’m back on my feet
2.
Climb up to the top of the hill and I See from nearly every side now We learned a couple a things that I Never needed until tonight now Roll on to the next little hill and I Feel like a changed man that’s More or less all I’ve got and As much as I can understand man Drown those sorrows in a triple cream & I Feel like a’ half of myself Go to places I already been and can’t Even recognize the help and And when that next stress hits I won’t I won’t I won’t I won’t take it so hard I won’t take it so hard Drink my juice from a special cup so I Can feel just like a human Submit to the daily routine and I Can’t tell a drink from the grind man Drop off what we don’t really need not gonna Miss it when I buy it buy it buy it back now Steal a quarter and find myself wise and I Get the best deals known to mankind Walk a hundred thousand steps a day I don’t Sleep better than another man might and Where I’m living on a borrowed dime I won’t forget you Breathe in so I keep feeling green and I See just about all around now Can’t tell about the things that I’ve seen without Spoiling it for everyone around now Roll over and make a big noise and I Leave before they read the rights now Hide out over past the state line and I don’t I don’t I don’t think I’ll come back Bow down to an inverse cross and I See it from a different side now Keep away from the things I don’t need ain’t gonna Speak until I get the right sign and Climb down in the next little ril Need to hide away from my own god damned plan When I’m shooting from the heart I don’t Aim but still I still I still I make my mark
3.
I put a kiss before the cause 
And have consumed all of it raw 
Painting an altar onto the wall
 It's a curious pastime 
Up in the corner for far too long 
Keeping the light on only because 
Cause I'd rather be on the floor Through a tunnel wreathed in lights 
Escape to our hideout in the alps 
We walk a perilous occupation 
a serious pastime 
Tucked into corners brokering deals 
Watching the movement but never the wheels 
Cause I'd rather be on the floor Where I’d shake and show out
 All by myself Buy a ticket and claim your prize 
Weave a ladder out of grass
 Trading time for a piece of the pie 
it’s the national pastime
 Building up vapor from vision and dreams 
Watching the movie and stealing the scenes 
Cause I’d rather be on the floor Where I’d shake and show out
 With no one else Where I’d shake and show out 
Only with you I put a kiss before the cause 
And have consumed all of it raw 
Turn down the sheets, paint over the wall 
We control the pipeline
 Bow to the altar and broker the deal 
Blow out the light and make off with the reels 
Cause I'd rather be on the floor
4.
Lost in the great wide open Can’t let go of the fear of not being’ right There is no fine resolution Between the black and the white Can’t keep track of emotion Try to stop the words I still haven’t found Reflected in the cool season Deep as the snow on the groc ccccund But there was something in that moment When my collection became so clear And everything is automatic after all Oh I deliberately grind your gears But you expand to span the minutes Into a century When you’re lost in the seconds And you feel alive with what is still unfound I’ll try to hear the unspoken And let the quiet surround me
5.
Who would have even pictured it Never before seen on the face of the earth Except when it happened before On a cold, clear day Somewhere in America A wave swells up And swallows the modern world It's a hard time and a long road what a steep climb with this heavy load Did you see it? Someone had to have seen it You couldn't miss it on the faces of the unwashed dumbstruck below on a cold clear day somewhere in America the people pulled a lever and swallowed the modern world It's a hard time and a long road what a steep climb with this heavy load Outside your window The middle of Summer The waters are rising Time to take over Why didn't you try to stop it Couldn't you see it upfront Did any of us think of the children Who'd want the lesson they got On a cold clear day Somewhere in America The waste is backing up And poisoning all of the world It's a hard time and a long road what a steep climb with this heavy load Outside your window The middle of Summer The waters are rising Time to take over
6.
On a subatomic scale Bouncing off each other Everything you’ve ever felt and seen Dictated by the space between Rotated by all seeing eye Under microscopic gaze Equal to each other Change only one a, g, or t Dictated by the space between Rotated by all seeing eye And you’re starting to think In the span of a blink Everything that you’ve seen with your eyes is what your brain made up And it’s illusory Like melting clocks in a dream Countless dots make a scene And you're on Over macroscopic glare Difference so subtle Only things you touch taste hear and see Dictated by the space between Rotated by all seeing eye
7.
Little birds all lined up on the wire
 a’feathers fleeting 
Stealing winter hanging on the line 
And we’re hitting the dregs again Watch those secret dreams grow round upon the vine 
And the honey’s dripping 
Hold your distant schemes like water turned to wine 
And give all of your blood to me Move closer to ascend the path on high
 Arm and arm we’re marching 
Round the bend a severe jagged line 
And we’re deep in the weeds again Watch your dearest dreams bud up upon the vine 
Oh the honey’s dripping 
Hold your secret schemes like water turned to ice 
And give all of your blood to me I have it made, (like) I had you made, there’s no over-under. I’ve got it made All at once so wretched and divine The one heart beating Skipping 'cross a fleeting string of time And I’m under your skin again As our precious fruit grows riper off the vine Hand in hand they’re singing Hold your dearest truths from starlight in the night and give all of your blood to me
8.
Dawn Jangles 04:16
After tying on a tight one And taking in the scenery They decided that the other one Was with whom that they would disagree Everybody’s on the boulder And the state is in decline But his head is on her shoulder and the weight is off his mind Hitching a ride on the arrow of time It’s a golden affair And the morning is coming Over four and twenty oceans They are east and west combined In an ancient dirty city Amongst the bleeding hearts He sees in four dimensions Her music’s Taylor-made They’re moving in ascension When they shake Hitching a ride on the arrow of time It’s a golden affair And the morning is coming Over four and twenty oceans They're taking in the scenery In an ancient dirty city And with whom that they would disagree Everyone’s on the boulder And the state is in decline But his head is on her shoulder and the weight is off his mind Hitching a ride on the arrow of time It’s a golden affair And the morning is coming
9.
Archaeopteryx they flew in threes Mommy daddy the family tree Holy roller you’re killing me Separating man from the entire Animal family I always know the wrong thing to say And the very worst way to say it So please don't make my choices I want more than that Two all bound up in filigree Mommy daddy the family tree Holy roller you smother me Locking all your unearned gains In a box under lock and key I always know the wrong thing to say And the very worst way to say it So please don't make my choices I want more than that After a silent sit and stay a story comes in from the dark We all have our own hard time But baby you have had a lot Oh no What more can we say We ain’t ever gonna be the same I concede you’re right And we don’t have to go on It’s like chess with a pigeon
10.
11.
Tornado Time 03:36
I don't know what you did But I'm pretty sure you do If you give away a secret Then it won't be safe with you Like a cat whose robbed the cage Or a kid lifting the goods You could list out all your reasons But you'd never speak the truth And I could give but it won't be enough We're gonna break when your push turns to shove But you could walk away with all that I have, but none of my love Your culture is hungry, it'll swallow me whole You've got your guard back up Could I ever give you enough You've got your guard back up Why was breaking you down so tough
12.
Oscar 04:52
A melancholy morning ray That came into my world today Was on his way out On my day out In spite of what I care to say I am the problem with the world today I’m maladjusted I can’t be trusted A balance in society With essence and variety Is all I’ve wanted It’s what hunted But in spite of all I care to say In fantasy is where I long to lay And dream a way out Of my day out So hold on, fellow sycophants Everyone around us knows it’s for the best Why are we waiting? Why am I caving in? Because the stars are falling And the wheel of the year's a turning I can't keep caving in

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Another argument with history.

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released November 27, 2020

All music and lyrics written by Ryan Spilken except
"Shine My Own Goddamn Light" title by Annaliese Spilken and "Dawn Jangles" which came from a riff by Neal Riley

Ryan Spilken: Vocals, Guitar, Keyboards, Programming
Nick Bialaszewski: Lead guitar on "Shine My Own Goddamn Light"
Brad Cantrell: Lead guitar on "Tornado Time"
Neal Riley: Synth on "Dawn Jangles"
Jonathan James: Mastering, guitar on "Curse Of The Wampire

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